{Blessed}

Sunday Journal Time

(my new Sunday blog posts =)

There are still some things that are a mystery to me. . . and i can't seem to figure them out.

All i really want is closure, so i'm finding it for myself without the help of someone else. =(

(will you help me, please? i know you can make this easier than you are. . .)

But i am blessed.

I was swimming in the ocean yesterday, at my favorite beach in the world.

And i only live 30 minutes away from it.

Just floating, diving in and out and letting my thoughts wander.

Then, that sweet spirit touches me, like it has a lot these past few months,

assuring me that everything is going to be ok in my life.

It assures me that no matter what happens, I know who is always there,

and he will never leave me.

Sometimes i feel him beside me, holding me, and helping me through my struggles.

I feel him when i can't seem to stop worrying.

When I realize i deserve to be treated better,

and then i have a friend there who will hug me when i can't stop crying.

he's there too.

I am grateful to have my constant companion,

his gentle assurances and sweet whisperings are guiding me

and telling me that i am doing what i should

i am where i'm supposed to be

and i am blessed beyond measure.

"Faith sustains its' true defenders with the promise of relief."