To sum up a Year

Freshman year at BYUH was amazing.

I made so many friends that no doubt i'll have forever.

I was part of the Cheerleader/dance team

and Oahu became my new home. I am so blessed to be here!

BYU Hawaii

As a little lad of only 18 years old.

a week in the month of February.

I had been rejected by BYU Provo,

and was awaiting the prospect of attending the beautiful, wonderful, amazing campus of BYU Hawaii.

They put me on hold. for a week.

I don't think i've ever prayed so hard for

something in my life.

But guess what happened??

(well i think you can guess..)

i got in!

sadly i found out while i was watching President Hinckley's funeral, so that day was a mess of tears and laughs. But i knew that my Heavenly Father loved me, and was blessing me even on the day of my favorite prophet's funera

l.

And so began my journey to BYU Hawaii, leaving behind a lush green state that was Georgia, where i had met amazing people and made best friends.. and off to a beautiful island. Awaiting with its palm trees, people from all different land

s, and not a soul that knew Stephanie Holm.

My family came to see me off.. all 14 of us and it was a blast! i couldn't ask for a better family.

We took surfing lessons at Sunset Beach....

Found creatures on a Sunday walk...

Went on a hike that led to an awesome rope swing into a river!...

And played in the sand =)

After all the fun was up... it was time to say goodbye. It didn't hit me until after we had gotten to the campus, and to my hale that my family was leaving for a very long time, and i would be on my own.

I cried the first time i saw my dormroom.....

"are you really going to leave me here??"

But coming to this amazing school was one of the best decisions i have ever made.

The beginning.

Since i only started this blog last semester, i thought i'd re-introduce myself.... and start at the beginning.

Born-Las Vegas, NV

Birthday- August 31, 1989

Move- to St. George, UT August 1995

Live- G&G Anderson

Move- 1540 stonecliff Drive (which is now curiously changed to road...?)

schools:

Elaine Wynn (vegas)

East (st. george)

Bloomington Hills (st. george; with my cute boyfriend and some of the best people that are still magnificently in my life :)

Desert Hills

Pine View middle

AND....

the last two are my FAVORITES

Chattahoochee High School (that's right.. my high school diploma is the coolest and could probably beat yours up.. thats not very nice.. but that name is rockin)

and BYU Hawaii!!!

I loved living in Georgia, it was one of the best learning and growing experiences and i made some of the best friends i will ever have.

College comes next...

Hawaiian Sweetness

Photography of Places i want to go....

My Blog Mishaps

I always see all these cute blogs, and i try so hard to make mine cute.. and i feel like i am failing at that haha. So please just ignore me trying to be better at blogging =S.

Getting to Know Stef

ThIngS i CouLDn't LiVe WiTHouT:

ClEanIng

WatChiNg MoviEs and CudDliNg wiTh DanNY

MakInG LisTs

GroCeRY ShoPpIng BY MySElF

SuBWaY

ReArrAnGiNG FuRnituRe

ShoPpIng FoR BeDDinG

ShoPPinG iN GenERaL

GoING OuT To DinNer or A MoVIE

BuiLdInG SanDCAstlEs

ReADiNg

EdITiNg PapeRS

DoInG HaiR

GIviNG PediCUreS

ChICk FlIckS

HoLDiNG HanDS

MuLTiTaSkinG (i've been diagnosed by some people who think they're doctors with ADD)

CeREaL & CarToOnS

TakINg PicTUREs

FaLL

BiRThdAYs

sHopPINg iN tHe MorNInG

MaUI

LivING iN HaWAii

CoLLegE LiFE

GeoRGia

CoLD ShoWeRs aFteR thE BeaCH

ZooS

ThEMe ParKS

BaCK ScRatCHeS

PerfUmE (i'm really good at smells.. and randomly remembering names haha)

ShAviNg My LeGS oN a SunDaY

QuoTiNg ThiNgs

BloGgiNg

FloSSiNg

PretTy WomAn

. . . .

PeOpLe WhO aRe GEnUineLY HapPy

New GOALs for April and SpRinG SemESteR:

-no homework on sundays

-go to all of my church meetings and every devotional

-workout every school day

-make people around me happy =) haha

-get really good grades

-work on saving more money

-pray and read my scriptures everyday

-and try a little harder to be a little better

All We Can Do is Keep Breathing

So what i have to do this weekend is write 3 papers.

But what i want to do....

-go to Winter Ball (i still have yet to be asked to a dance, or go to a college dance)

-See Eat, Pray Love the movie (even though it hasn't come out yet haha)

-hold baby Jett and see Baby June walk

-have a day for myself without homework, and without anyone.

-go shopping wif my momma

-hang out with weston in georgia one last time before he leaves

Yep.. ALL in one weekend. maybe i'll fly home for a few days in april.

mostly i just want life to get easier, because it's going downhill a little.

"All we can do is keep breathing.... "

The storm is coming

but i dont mind

people are dying

i close my blinds

all that i know is i'm breathing now.

i want to change the world

instead, i sleep

i want to believe

in more than you and me.

all that i know is i'm breathing

all i can do is keep

breathing

all we can do is keep breathing now.

now, now, now

all that i know is i'm breathing

all i can do is keep breathing

all we can do is keep breathing

all we can do is keep breathing

all we can do is keep breathing

all we can do is keep

breathing

now

The Hope I Hold Onto

Today at church was really good.

I love Sundays where i know i need to go,

and i know i'm not tired,

and i'm ready to learn & feel the spirit.

This week is the birthday of Relief Society.

(we got cake & ice cream after R.S. today and it was soo yummy!)

I always hated the thought of leaving young women's for relief society.

Its for old women who are married & have completely different lives than me.

Today was different, it hit me where i am in my life. & i'm so grateful for it.

Our lesson was about Adam & Eve & the part they play in Heavenly Father's plan.

So.. basically.. the purpose for us to be here is to learn.

Especially for me, because i am so lucky to have the gospel.

To learn to be happy, to learn from others, and to have a family.

Joy.

Amanda's lesson was awesome.

She told us about when she went to Nauvoo,

she saw these statues,

they were of a girl's life.

1) a young girl playing

2) a young woman

3) a girl in college

4) a woman going on a mission/meeting a man

5) raising a family

6) sitting in a rocking chair looking at a book of her genealogy.

her joy was in the life she lived, and the joy she had in raising her family.

It made me realize 2 things.

#1. There is always joy that can be found wherever we are in life.

#2. you can look back feeling great joy or regret.

=) just a Sunday Thought.

My Lil Lip baaaaalm

PS, i love this boy =) haha

I'll stop the World & Melt with you..

This week has been REALLY busy. Really Really Busy.

Tons of papers, assignments, and last minute things to do.

PLUS Ris is staying with me, so i get to party with her too.

It's really fun having her here! & it's a really good thing for Danny to have her here i think.

They're both at the "Ha; Breath of Life" night show at the Polynesian Culture Center, so i thought i'd talk about them behind their backs. ;) haha.

This week so far:

Ris got here Saturday Night,

Sunday we went to church,

Ris rode a bike later that day to meet up with Danny.

my house is half a mile away from campus,

she went really slow, but did really good!

it was pretty entertaining.

Then we made shrimp scampi and caesar salad for din-din.

and watched a movie.

Monday;

school

homework

grocery shopping

movie

dyed my hair dark brown (with ris' help)

Tuesday;

Made french toast instead of Hukilau Cafe for breakfast,

devotional

smoothies at the seasider snackbar

spanish class

spanish test

Bus to Sunset Beach, it has never rained any time i've gone there. it's always beautiful, and of course the first time i take danny and ris, it's cloudy, the waves are huge, and it rains/POURS.

Came home, watched a movie. Wrote a paper.

Wednesday;

got a letter from julie!

and news from Kenzie Ames, her mom isn't doing so good.

(sidenote: i remember when i was 14, Kenzie found out her mom had stomach cancer.. i think.. and we took a long walk to talk about it. It has been a long road for her mom since then, and we all need to keep her in our prayers. ironically that same day i flipped her fourwheeler on the road and got a really bad concussion. that was nice of me haha)

Julie is doing so good! she's loving it. It's weird because i really never saw her that much, but just knowing she's off on a mission, and not sitting at my house in her pajamas on the couch watching Big Cat Diaries makes me really really sad =( i love my big sister, she is amazing.

Today i had class, then came home and watched Chicago, and just finished doing some pilates, waiting for the Baer's to get back.

More l8a!

Livin, Laughin, Lovin Hawaii

:)

A few weeks ago, a girl in my ward moved back to Japan where she's from. We always sing "Aloha Oe" whenever people leave the ward, so it's usually at the end of each semester, and everyone gets lei'd. (haha)

I realized that i will be really sad when i have to leave Hawaii. At first I thought i'd only stay for a year, then transfer to Provo or somewhere else on the mainland.

But i really do love it here. I love that it's far away from everything. I love that i can cross the street and be at the beach. I love that surf competitions go on all the time only a few miles away from me. I love learning about all these different cultures, it's teaching me to be humble, and it makes me want to travel really really bad. (a plus side to that is i'll probably know someone wherever i travel =))

The gist of all of this is, I love Hawaii. BYU Hawaii is my special place. and i'm so glad i get to be here.

FRIDAY!!!!!!

Ladies & Gentleman. i still hate math.


Things i have to do for the upcoming week:
(while ris is here.. so i'm trying to hurry and finish so we can partay!)
-write a research paper thesis, introduction, conclusion, and works cited.
-read a 175 page book
-write a reading response 2-3 pages for that book (entitled Potiki)
-finish all my POGP assignments so i dont have to worry about them.
-catch up on 8 weeks of spanish diarios. (one per week)
-math quiz/math test/2 homework assignments

it's going to be a party =D

Sister Julie Holm

My big sister JulieAnn went into the MTC
this past Wednesday.

I called her the night before she left, she seemed fine, just packin up her room. The next day she called me while i was in my English class to say bye, so i ran out of the room to answer it. She sounded like she had been crying all morning, (if either of my sister, or my mom cry, i automatically start crying too haha). so i spent the rest of the morning trying not to cry in my classes.
It's crazy, i can't believe i can't text or call her or see her for 18 months!
Her e-mail is julie.holm@myldsmail.net if anyone wants to write her!

Nipple Cookies, The Tinkle Shuffle, & Tape Faces

Digital Digital Get Down

Do you know what i think?

I think that I'm tired.

Do you know what else?

I built a sandcastle today..

and it got me excited for my ceramics class in Spring.

Also..

-Julie leaves this coming Wednesday.

it is the weirdest thing ever.

I like don't want to go home to have to see what it's going to be like to not have her there.

-I went to the BYUH Culture Night last night and tonight.

My boyfriend danced with the Taiwan club.

and it hit me.

I am so lucky that i get to be here.

i'm so lucky to get to see all these cultures and learn about them everyday.

And i'm not doing a good enough job trying to get to know people.

I've actually kind of made my friend count smaller lately.

(its not good.. but i am really distracted. and stressed out.

i miss being in high school, i had this unwavering confidence and i don't know where it came from but i want it back)

And this too...

-i miss having a group of really fun friends and doing crazy things.

like dancing in our underwear and skinny dipping (jazmin)

or driving in georgia and getting lost in traffic for 3 hours.. and not caring because we were singing to the Hairspray soundtrack (Weston)

and talking on the phone about every single problem we had (Courtney)

and singing to songs out loud and not caring at all.

and waving to people in traffic to make them happy.

getting frappuccinos

baking cookies at 2AM

watching movies and talking about everything and telling stories

i dont know what has happened to me lately.

i've lost all my umph.

and people have noticed.

even my home teacher asks me if anything is wrong.

i think one day it just flew away from me.

(answer this and i'll promise a shoutout: how does one get their umph back?)

oh and this...

-Ris is coming Saturday, and for realsies i can't wait.

i'm positive its going to be a ton of fun having her here.

especially since she feels like a sister.. and i miss my sisters.

-i miss my niece and nephews. =( everytime danny or i see a little kid we're always like "look how cute that little kid is!" and i always think of them.

-i'm starting to miss my mom a lot lately.

especially since i know julie is leaving, i kind of have this urge to just move home.

**the best thing ever would be if:

i could stay here and go to school..

have all of my friends from all over here with me

have my mom here at night to talk to me and comfort me.

and have my family here to cook for.

all with danny by my side.

(oh and i woke up really skinny.. that'd be the best=D)

1-800-helpmegetmyumphback.com

What do i want....hmm...

Weirdest thing ever.

A kid i dated got engaged yesterday.

I saw a dance concert from a dance class i was supposed to be in last night.

It was so good.. i regret not taking the class. but its a good thing because i would probably fail math if i had haha.

I want to keep dancing. I miss it a lot.

I want to keep taking piano lessons, and learn how to play the guitar.

I think i'm going to try and take a singing class.

This is why college is so awesome. I still have opportunities to figure out what i want to do.

I only have about 3-4 more credits until i'm done with my GE's.. and i can get my associates

this December if i want to!

My goal is a Bachelors here. I dont know what to major in?

Art?

English?

English Education?

Business?

Who's sick of looking for a cute background for her blog?

Me.

The Best.

Thai Food in Haleiwa tonight with the girls.

the end.

Today is a good day =)

1. diablo is moving come Spring

2. my first class of the morning got cancelled

3. i get to show my spanish class how to make cookies

4. my best friend from Georgia texted me this morning

( our inside jokes are the best and i miss him!! )

5. no more HCG for me.. healthy food & exercise.. don't judge me. i love food too much.

6. i still have the best boyfriend eva