Dew me some good =)

Today is such a good day!
Sister Sherri Dew is here on campus.
I saw her at Foodland last night buying groceries and whispered to Danny that she was standing right there. He goes, "go touch her..." haha she's pretty much a celebrity to me.
I just started reading her book "God Wants A Powerful People".
And lucky lucky me! i slept in today and missed my church, and went to my roommate's ward.

When sacrament started, the 2nd counselor got up, welcomed everybody and said,
"We are so grateful to have Sister Dew and Sister Nelson in our congregation today"
I got way excited.. then they asked them to go up at the very end to share their testimonies.
My eyes were glued to them haha. It was awesome, and there's also a fireside tonight.
So I'll post some of the saweet things I know they're going to say later =)

Happy Sunday =)

That's all

"I can only give you love that lasts forever
and a promise to be near each time you call
and the only heart I own, for you and you alone
That's all, that's all

I can only give you country walks in springtime
and a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall
and a love whose burning light, will warm the winter night
that's all, that's all

There are those who aren't sure
who have told you
they would give you the world, for tonight

All I have are these arms to enfold you
and a Love time can never destroy

If you're wondering what I'm asking in return dear,
you'll be glad to know that my demands are small

Say it's me that you adore
for now, and ever more.
that's all, that's all. "

{Trust}

"Trust in the Lord with all thine Heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all they ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy path."

-Proverbs 3:5

I have had this wonderful thing inside of me telling me to be happy. To be patient, and

that I have a lot to look forward to.

There are so many things that I want. I want to be able to serve people so that I can stop focusing

on myself.

I came to BYU Hawaii knowing that it is a rare thing to be accepted here. I have a strong belief

that whoever is accepted, and follows the honor code and searches for the reasons they are here,

will make a huge difference in the institution as a whole, and in smaller parts of theirs and

other people's lives.

That's what I am seeking.

One thing every person must learn, is that God is willing to grant us blessings if we ask for them.

He is willing to guide us and show us, and that following his path is the best way to true happiness.

I am learning patience, but on the way I have gained these desires;

~I want to raise my family in the gospel, and I know that I am gaining my testimony right now so that I

can teach them.

~I want to get married in the temple. . to the man my patriarchal blessing describes.

~I want to travel places with my husband and see things and help people and learn more about the world.

I don't want to do it alone.

I'm only twenty. haha. But I'm so excited to get married.. when the time is right (=

My roommate Ashley and I have been looking at wedding stuff the past week or two. We don't

plan on getting married for a while, but it seems to put us both in elated sort of moods haha.

Enough about that! haha I really don't think about it that often, but when I do. . . i get really excited.

I have a feeling it'll be sooner rather than later. . .

Some news on my EFY job application:

I called the office today, they said that they're waiting for a girl to accept or decline the job,

and if she declines they'll "probably" give it to me. Here's to hoping! It's in about a week so

they better jump on that! That would be the best thing ever!!!

And i'm off to the beach again.

Happy Aloha Friday!

Busy Little Bee

Yay!

The past couple of days, i've been pretty busy.

My classes are actually really slow and not so time consuming.

I have to write 2 small reading summaries for history, and a 4 page paper and i'm done.

no more class.

For ceramics i have to glaze 3 more pieces, and wait til they get fired, take a quiz tomorrow,

and i'm done!

2 nights ago i was invited by some of the coolest kids here at byuh haha to play games with them. My roommates and tagged along.

there were 10 of us crammed into a mini van with no seats haha.

and we went to Kahuku (where i picked up trash for a service project =) and played some games with a tennis ball (including attempting to play baseball, and throwing the ball around in a huge circle). On the way back, we were all crammed in the van again, and "My Girl" came on the radio.. we were all singing and it was the best thing ever haha.

Then we went back to the Water Polo House and played games in their yard. Including Ninja!, Hunter woman bear, and talked until really late haha and i still had homework and a 7:30 class in the morning.

We made plans to play soccer the next day too and i was so excited!

Wednesday:

7:30- History class til 9:40

We got breakfast and reviewed the theme we've been talking about.

When we were all done eating, a kid came in with a watermelon, everyone started cheering and laughing at him.. so he started throwing it from one hand to the other, and it fell and broke all over the floor. It was probably one of the funniest things ever.

9-9:50.. got out of class early.. wrote Logan Greenburg who just got to the MTC!

9:50 ceramics

11: home for lunch, showered and watched a little bit of Glee (i'm gonna finish it today)

2:30 ish.. Danny came over =) we had a nice little talk haha oh how i love my best friend.

4 Went to play some soccer! i didn't even know where our schools soccer field was haha it's hidden behind the PCC.

6:30 PM went to the ceramics studio to have a glazing party.. which ended up only lasting about 2 hours.

9PM dinner with Ashley (corn and pizza rolls haha)

9:30 Ultimate Frisbee at the Rugby Field

11:30 Taco Bell

12:45 Bed.

I'm so glad that i've been kept busy! =)

I love Hawaii. I've never been here during the summer, but its got this nice vacationy-summer feel to it and i'm loving it.

(but i still can't wait to go home.. then come back to Hawaii with a car =)!! yay

And today I'm going to the beach. =)

11 Days

Things I want to do in St. George this Summer:

~Bake with my momma

~Go to Vegas and go shopping

~In-N-Out, Cafe Rio, Red Robin, Benjas, Pizza Factory. . . oh my goodness. . .haha

~Visit my parents new ranch by Pine Valley

~Visit Matt and Melissa and Baby June

~play with my nephews and hang out with my siblings

~Drive and sing with Jazmin

~skinny dip and dance in my underwear with Jazmin haha

~Frappuccinos

~maple bars and chocolate milk from Harmons

~go on drives in my car!! yay!

~Hopefully see Weston before he leaves on his mission

~Visit my Georgia friends in Provo

I'm so excited!!

Beaches, Ghosting, Milk Duds, Packages, and Cookies!

2 things for this post.

This is my History Professor.

She bashes on our government for at least

20 minutes of the 2 hour class every single day.

and I'm like ok lady..

there are only 3 american kids in the class

the rest are from all over the world.

Compared to some places, our government really is doing good

so calm yourself down, and try to be optimistic.

Because there is a lot of good in our country too.

and i think that the people you're talking to should hear that more.

she also made me and another girl stand up and

"follow the yellow brick road"

whilst arms locked and skipping around the classroom

and singing.

2 more weeks. haha

#2

Today is a good day =) and Stephanie needed it haha

*ceramics class.. (well first my ceramics professor got mad at me.

He almost ruined one of my pieces and told me he didn't feel bad

because I did it wrong and i shouldn't have.

i was literally holding back tears..

then realized he was really frustrated with another kid he

had just talked to because the kid has turned in ONE

assignment out of TWENTY, so it wasn't me. and i felt better.

I actually work really hard to try and impress him..

later i fixed it and asked if it was ok..

he said "yeah.. that's actually really good, good job."

i think he knew he made me feel bad.)

But i love the class haha and i love all the people in it,

i've made like 15 new friends and it's awesome.

Anyway.. storytime.

(this is awkward.. but really funny.)

I was throwing a pot on the potter's wheel during class. I have to use a bucket of water with a sponge to wet the clay. So i had to lean forward over the pot a lot to wet the sponge. My teacher had to come over and help me do something i'd never tried before.. and we ghosted for a few seconds haha, but that's not the best part. . .

I was leaving my class, and realized that my boobs had big brown spots on them. Like.. just on the tips. Both of them, it looked like i dipped them in clay. SUPER awkward.. but funny haha I was embarrassed at first, then laughed at myself. "my nipples look like milk duds!"

~I made a cool pot in ceramics (really tall with a lid.. its hard!)

~Almost finished the Hunger Games

~Received an answer to something I've been praying a long time about =)

~Went to the beach with some friends

. . . 2 of Danny's friends that came couldn't swim,

and they were playing in the ocean with us.

the waves were pretty big, and the girl kept getting sucked under

and she'd just come up and laugh and smile.

She was super brave!

and the boys would grab her arm so she wouldn't go under,

but sometimes they wouldn't grab her and it made me so nervous!

they'd have to run after her and pull her up out of the water.

But she did it for a while,

i remember when i first swam in the ocean, and getting sucked under a wave

even when you know how to swim is WAY scary. .

~Got a package from my momma =) . . i still haven't opened it

i have no idea whats inside!!

~Awaiting Friends Season 5 to add to my collection

~Our oven broke.. it's been broken for almost 2 weeks and our landlord fixed it today!

Cookie party tonight!!!!

=good day for Steph!

REally?!?

Just a thought.

~Do you ever wish you could stop thinking this. . .

{I wish i could just stop thinking about it!!}

only to make you think about it even more.

thats me.

all day long.

and then i have to calm myself down

and laugh.

and smile.

because in Eat.Pray.Love. she says. . .

"I was never not going to be here.

God drew a circle in the sand in this very spot. .

I was never NOT going to do this."

my Heavenly Father loves me.

10 days.. Momma Mia!

Another one of my lists for today =) enjoy!

> I am so ecstatic about going home for the summer.. its almost unbearable. (but bearable.. i'm still nervous about it too.. it's really an up and down sort of thing)

>my parents will be gone the first 5 days I'm home (they'll be in China).. i'm really nervous about being home by myself for that long when I first get there.. I HATE being home alone here in Hawaii.. my doubts and fears have gotten the best of me and i get super discouraged unless i have people around me. Which leads to..

>I'm grateful for 4 people.

*Bree Masters

*Danny Baer

*Val... Valerie... i don't know his last name (prodan? haha i dont remember)

and *Ashley Parry

because they keep me company.

>My ceramics class has gotten awesome again.. we're Glazing and it's really fun

>I am almost halfway through the Book of Mormon.. I've never read it all the way through on my own (thats really sad I know.. but I'm gaining a huge appreciation for it.. better now than never, right?)

>I finished Eat.Pray.Love. . . but very slowly because i was really reluctant to have it end. I loved it too much haha that's probably why it took me so many months to finish.

(i love everything about this book. . . her writing style is amazing and its just.. oh.so.good. =) you should read it.) (oh! and i'm also really really stoked for the movie.)

>I've realized that I have anxiety. . and i've had it pretty bad for a while. I have hardly any patience for things. . and so. . with patience and long suffering haha i am learning to cope with it, to slow it down, and hopefully it won't be such a big issue anymore. (since i just caught it i can see the huge impact it has had on me and my life.. and it's going to stop whether it likes it or not!)

If you want more love, why don't you say so

Happy Sunday =)

I got an e-mail from my sweet Grandma and it had a quote from President Uchtdorf, so i clicked on the link, and oh my goodness it was almost ridiculous how much i needed to read it. Thanks Gran love you!

Here are some quotes (there are a lot.. so be patient. haha)

"Continue in Patience"

"Patience- the ability to put our desires on hold for a time- is a precious and rare virtue."

"Patience is a purifying process that refines understanding, deepens happiness, focuses action, and offers hope for peace."

"Patience requires actively working toward worthwhile goals and not getting discouraged when results don't appear instantly or without effort."

"Patience is not passive resignation, nor is it failing to act because of our fears. Patience means active waiting and enduring. It means staying with something and doing all that we can - working, hoping, and exercising faith; bearing hardship with fortitude even when desires of our hearts are delayed. Patience is not simply enduring; it is enduring well!"

"Never give up on anyone, and that includes not giving up on yourself."

"Heavenly Father has a purpose in requiring his children to wait. Every one of us is called to wait in our own way. We wait for answers to prayers. We wait for things which at the time may appear so right and so good to us that we can't possibly imagine why Heavenly Father would delay the answer."

"Eventually, we learn that God's promises are not always fulfilled as quickly as or in the way we might hope; they come according to His timing and His ways."

"The promises of the lord, if not perhaps swift, are always certain."

"Give me patience to wait until I can understand it for myself" -Brigham Young

"We must learn that in the Lord's plan, our understanding comes "line upon line, precept upon precept. Knowledge and understanding come at the price of patience."

"Often the most difficult times of our lives are essential building blocks that form the foundation of our character and pave the way to future opportunity, understanding, and happiness."

"Patience means staying with something until the end. It means delaying gratification and future blessings. It means reining in anger and holding back the unkind word. It means resisting evil, even when it appears to be making others rich."

"Patience means accepting that which cannot be changed and facing it with courage, grace, and faith. It means being "willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon us. Even as a child doth submit to his father."

"In patience you win mastery of your soul."

"Patience means to abide in faith, knowing that sometimes it is in the waiting rather than in receiving that we grow the most."

"Continue in patience until ye are perfected."

"If we wait patiently for the Lord, He will incline unto us. He will hear our cries. He will bring us out of the horrible pit and set our feet upon a solid rock. Many around us will see it, and they will trust in the Lord."

"Courageously trust the Lord's promises and His timing; act toward others with the patience and compassion we seek for ourselves."

Love, Rosebud

Hello, I Love You

Dear World,

Please somehow send something looking like these beauties to me.

I would be much appreciative =)

loves loves

big hug.. little hug

Stef.

Cinco De Mayo Fiesta

Sorry it took me so long to post this.. but i totally forgot that i took pictures of it.. so now i'm blogging about it (it already feels like it was FOREVER ago and it was only a week ago tonight.. why is time going by SO SLOW??!?)

Anyways.

becca, bree, chantal, ashley,

crystal, and i all had a party for Cinco De Mayo

complete with:

NACHO

My homemade Enchiladas

(more like giant burritos.. with enchilada sauce haha they were really big)

Chantal's 7-Layer Dip

And Becca brought me my favorite =)

We also drew on mustaches,

sideburns,

and goatees

with mascara and eyeliner

took sweet pictures

and got ice cream afterwards

pretty slammin party

if i do say so myself =)

Feliz Cinco De Mayo el semana pasada

Lead me.. out on the moonlit floor

So Kiss Me.

Happy Birthday to my BBFF

A few little things about my

Boy Best Friend Forever.. . .

on his 22nd birthday =)

He loves everything about Taiwan/Asia

and all the cultures here at BYUH

We are an awesome party plan

ning committee

He's a really good dancer

He does silly things to make people laugh

and run away frightened haha

He is my Best Friend Forever

and I love him a whole lot =)

Happy Birthday

to you Danny Baer!

Happy Maja's Day!

To the beautiful women that I look up to so much!

Happy Mother's Day

From a very grateful

daughter/granddaughter/sister/sister-in-law

Flutters and Jitters

*Today is Bree Masters birthday!!! Happy Birthday Roomie =)

*My roommate Chantal left for Taiwan and China to tour with the school choir for 2 weeks.

the house feels weird without her.

*my TV that i got for $10 broke last night =(

*I went to look at a house up on the point that i'm going to move into this coming fall,

it has:

Cable TV

Parking

Internet

A HOT TUB!!

my own private room

granite countertops

a view overlooking the ocean

a 5 minute walk from the beach

and 4 of my friends might be moving in with me!!

**oh how spectacular life will be this coming Fall, just me and the girls i love most

(minus jazmin.. which is more of a reason for her to come here, yes?)

This past week, I woke up a few times with the feeling that I should just quit this term and go home. Not because of anything in particular, just the thought kept creeping in my head. So i prayed about it, and felt good about it. So i thought a good indication of the right answer would be to see how smoothly things go when i'm making my arrangements to go home.

Storing of my stuff could be done, i have housing for Fall, i can discontinue this term because we're not required to stay during terms. and it would only cost $100 to change my flight.

So i waited a day, and thought on it more. I talked to Danny and got a blessing, and that helped a lot (thanks best friend).

I felt like everything was going according to plan. Until i got on the computer to discontinue my classes. I sat there staring at my computer screen for 20 minutes, hesitating actually pushing the button that would end my spring term classes. My hands were shaking and i couldn't do it. I texted Jazmin, she called me for support, "Just do it!!!!!"

a few hours go by, i talk to a few people on the phone, skip my class, and try to really decide what i want to do.

~reasons for going home:

distractions

hanging out with jazmin

being with my family

~the responsible thing to do? stay and finish.

plus the changing of the flight went from 1 to $250

and my school would keep a wopping $500 of my tuition if i left.

So here i am, sitting in my little blue house, waiting for the time to go by so that i can be done and go home.

I miss my family, i miss jazmin, i miss feeling grounded because i'm all fluttery and all over the place and can't keep my head on straight. I hope when Fall rolls around, things are better for me.

Total {Eclipse} of the Heart

Favorite.

(ps.. the ballet dance was choreographed by Melissa from So You Think You Can Dance!! She's also dancing in it with the other girls =)

Whhatt?!?

Alright.. I am a Twilight fan. Team Edward all the way...

but this is just ridiculous.

"I am so disappointed in our entire human race right now. I’m angry at each and every one of you that we have gotten to this point as a species. I wish I could put literally every person in a timeout right now."

-peopleofwalmart.com

Oh and so is this. haha gross.

Mr. MailMan

Dear Mister Mail Man,

I just wanted to say thanks.

Thanks for delivering

2 wedding invitations

and a package from my mommy today.

I have been in desperate need of some cheering up

=)

You're the best Mister Mail Man!

Little Rascals

35 days 'til I get to see these

Little Munchkin Faces

I wanna be Forever Young.. . .

Singing in the car for 1.5 hours

shopping for 3.5

singing on the way back too

Becca

+

Steph

+

Bree

+

Crystal

=

Best Shopping Day Ever

~I might change my mind about my major again.

~I can't wait to go to my Favorite place in the world this summer!!! (lake powell...mmhmm)

~I miss having my best friend hanging out with me all the time.

~Eat.Pray.Love is awesome

~the scriptures are awesome and true

~i felt bad for not writing my sister that much.. but i realized today she's written me one letter and i've written her 4.. (what else do i worry about that i dont need to?? haha)

~I'm sorry my posts seem sappy sometimes.. but i'm working on it.