Double Posties for Slacking

I decided since I hardly post, that I'll post a few times every time i do haha.

Anyways. . . here's a confession.

This is MY blog. So i am going to just express myself.

I hope you don't judge me.

So yes, if you're wondering, i have been holding on to past feelings.

It's taken me a while to get over stuff.

It's helped me to see Faith in myself,

I know that it happened for a reason, and I know that my life will be strengthened from the experience.

but today, i looked at some pictures that a few weeks ago would have made me bawl like a baby again.

but today was different, today i saw it. What i've been waiting to see and denying that i ever would see.

It's just not going to work out the way i wanted it to.

and you know what? Its ok with me.

I really do see what i want, and things could have worked out differently, but there are no regrets. I'm grateful for the person that i have become because of these struggles and challenges.

So for today, i just want to say

My heart broke. it shattered.

My life was up-side down

In the first place i was scared to death

and its funny because what i was scared of actually happened.

and i am a completely different person now because of it.

So i am so incredibly grateful.

And I don't have any hard feelings.

I am so thankful that I got to have the opportunity to be in a relationship with someone so awesome and wonderful.

And the time has definitely come slowly but surely

where i can say. . .

thanks for all you did for me.

I still wish more than anything to have my best friend back.

But he's different now too, and i can't blame him or wish it any different.

But i do want to say, i loved you so much.

thanks for meaning the world to me in a small moment in my life.

And thanks for helping me let go.

You're doing the right thing.

. . . anyways now i'll just share a few things. . .

the songs i've posted with this are some songs that helped me so much through this.

its been months now, and i still can feel the pangs of hurt in my heart sometimes, but today is a different day and i want it to be. I really do want to let go. i really do want to be a better person for someone. I really do want him to be happy. and i really do love myself for being so strong. And i love my heavenly father for helping me so much.

So here's to you, Danny Baer.

Thanks for everything.